Veggie Kitchen Wednesday

I've been thinking a while about doing this, creating another "day," this one dedicated to recipes and vegetarian cooking (although there will probably be some fish thrown in every now and then). This is as much for me as for anyone else as I tend to forget recipes-- it doesn't help that I never write them down.

As a cook, I dedicate any creativity or spunk I have in the kitchen to both my great-grandmother and my father. My great-grandmother, who lived to be nearly 98, was an inspired cook. On special days she would whip up a roast, biscuits from scratch, creamed corn (that she grew), lima beans (ditto), stewed tomatoes, and at least two or three cakes and pies including fresh strawberry cake, caramel cake, lemon pie, and chocolate pie, all from scratch. Keep in mind she was doing this in my lifetime, and she was already 82 when I was born. She never measured a thing, not even when baking, pouring and seasoning just by memory and instinct.

My father's cooking style is very creative. He picked up that no-measuring thing from his grandmother, having watched her cook for the 50 years he had her in his life. But nothing scares him-- his philosophy is that if it ends up not tasting good, there's a pizza place down the street. And he never apologizes for his mistakes in the kitchen, something he says he learned from Julia Child. Unfortunately he can't seem to ever make the same thing twice, but that just forces you to remember to savor each bite of something wonderful as if it was your last.

Since it's finally cold here, at a chilly 52 outside today, I decided I'd start this off with my potato chowder recipe. I, like my father and his grandmother before him, don't measure. I guesstimate. I've never made a recipe exactly as it's stated-- I take it and twist it up, substitute, strip it down to its bare bones and redress. Recipes are just inspiration for me; at the most they are vague guidelines. This original recipe started out with boxed potato flakes and no other vegetables, but I've turned it into a combination of potato soup and corn chowder. I encourage you to take this as inspiration and make it your own!


Scarlethue's Potato Chowder
serves 4 as a meal, 6-8 as a side/appetizer (I always make too much so I have leftovers)

5-6 good size yukon gold potatoes (if you get big ones, go for 5, otherwise 6 is better. can't really have too much), chopped small
1/2 cup frozen yellow corn kernels
1/3 cup shredded carrot
1/2 white or yellow onion, chopped finely
1/3 cup finely chopped celery (sometimes I add this, sometimes I don't)
10.5 ounces of vegetable broth (use the best stuff you can find, organic is better to skip the MSG)
1.5 cups water
1/4 to 1/3 cup half and half (based on preference. You could use cream)

Put the potatoes, corn, carrots, celery, and onion in a large saucepan, and pour over the broth and water so that the veggies are just covered (add more broth/water mix if you went overboard on potatoes). Cover the pot and simmer on medium for about 35-45 minutes until the potatoes are soft. Get out your potato masher and start smooshing up the potatoes right in the same pot. This is what makes it more like chowder and less like chunky soup, but hey if you like chunks, leave this step out. Once you've got it significantly mashed, pour in the half and half, stir and heat through another 5 minutes. Serve with crusty bread or biscuits. It's very filling!

While writing this I just thought about adding leeks instead of celery.... Let your veggie imagination run wild!

my jar of marbles

Monday morning as I rolled over and looked at my snoring husband, examining the "flesh" colored breathe-right strip across his nose, I remembered that there was no one else in my house. Not a soul other than me, my husband, my Bub, the kitty, and the ghosts of our histories. I sighed and kissed him gently to wake him up.

We've had house guests since last Monday, so to finally have our house back, our quiet back, and our noise back, was so... relieving. When my friend was here, I wasn't as worried that she would hear something or that we would bother her, but out of respect and decorum we refrained. With his parents in the house, no swear words could be uttered, no bitchy words about work or life could be spoken, and by no means could they hear any sighs coming from the bedroom. It made for a very long week.

When we first got married, we would make out for hours on the couch, like teenagers, and make love like bunnies in the spring every day. We couldn't get enough of each other; we had to breathe each other in, take our time, linger, pause to examine each moment, like there was nothing else in the world but the two of us. But there are other things, other places to be, responsibilities and stresses and even mundane things like televisions that steal your attention away from the most vital things.

I heard once that if you were to put a marble in a jar every time you made love your first year of marriage, and then in your second year you begin taking a marble out every time, you'll never remove all the marbles from the jar. What a terrible thought, what a loveless way to live your marriage. And you do live your marriage.

This is one case where you want your glass to be half empty, or all empty if you can manage it. I'd say we've long ago emptied the jar, but we're slowing on removing those imaginary marbles. We talk about it. We've had several conversations about how we don't want it to be this way, that we want to spend an hour staring into each others' eyes, like we used to, stroking naked skin with no intentions other than the feeling of that one finger on an arm or neck or leg or back, swaying in each others' arms, loving. But the conversations aren't quelling the disquiet, aren't turning off the tvs and cell phones, don't take our attention away from our jobs or our families, and can't stop the noise inside our heads caused by it all.

How do you get back to that place? I love him, obviously. And he loves me. We're the wonder twins, best friends, we complete each other in that cheesy movie way that no one thinks is real, but it is. It can be. Nothing is perfect, of course.

I hear relationship "experts" (can you really be such a thing?) say that we should make date nights, we should schedule sex into our busy lives so it's not missed, we should strive for regularity so we don't forget each other in our crazy little world.

"Honey, don't forget, it's Tuesday. At 8 pm I'll meet you in bed."

Where's the romance? Where's that sweep-me-off-my-feet, adore me and cherish me feeling? Should we just feel lucky enough to have earned that half-hour on a calendar? Could one night a month of total dedication to each other be enough, one date over candlelight and wine to inspire 30 more days of self-interest and "quickies" squeezed in between morning showers and rushing to work, between the 6 pm news and our dinner plans?

The longer I go without him, the weaker I feel. Having him back yesterday morning was like waking up on that first warm spring day after a long and bitter winter. Rejuvenating, but over all too quickly, before I know it fading again into cold days with falling leaves and gray clouds.

If I could live in an eternal spring with him, just the two of us, like it was when we were new to each other. As it is, we do the best we can, reaching out for each other in the dark as often as we can, like a light bulb to be turned on to illuminate the corners of our lives. We're better off than so many people, and happier than so many people. He is so important to me he's like an extension of my own body, and I count him at the top of my blessings every day.

Such a Grateful Thursday

1) I feel better. I'm still coughing, and at times it still gets pretty rough, but I can take a deep breath now and only feel a very slight need to cough on the exhale. My husband said my breathing sounded much less labored last night, and my throat wasn't nearly as sore this morning, plus my head isn't hurting, finally. I don't feel full of snot anymore, to put it bluntly. This is all kind of surprising considering I keep forgetting to take my antibiotic. Stupid things, once I start to feel better I always forget about them. But I'll finish them.

2) My friend being in town. We've had the best time this week. She's one of those very rare people (very rare indeed for an introvert like me) who I can not see for years, but as soon as we're back together it's like we were never apart. Last night at dinner she said something about sleeping on a guy's couch, and without knowing it I must have given the impression I knew the truth, and she called me on it, saying "Oh, right, I forgot, I can't lie to you, sitting over there with that half-cocked smirk on your face." And she's right, she can't, because I know her too well, as she does me.

3) New direction at work. I have been feeling a little bored lately. We've got several new employees, a couple of whom have taken over duties that used to be mine, which is great because I was overloaded, but I was beginning to feel like I gave away too much. I had a talk with my boss about it, though-- can I tell you how nice it is to have a boss who recognizes my worth so that I can have an "I'm bored" conversation with him with absolutely no fear that he will fire me?? Anyway, he told me I was going to have to get used to supervising people rather than actually doing all the work myself, which is true, plus he gave me some new, more important duties. Project management responsibilities. I'm a good little organizer, it's true, and I love to make to do lists, so this has been fun. Plus I'm back to feeling important and needed again. There's really nothing better than that.

4) This weekend. Although I'll be saying bye to my friend again tomorrow, my husband's parents will be coming in for the weekend. He has Saturday off for a change, so we're all going to be going to the local college football game and tailgate party, then that night we will be joining my parents as well for dinner at a very tasty restaurant downtown. I'm already planning what to order. We haven't seen his parents in a while and I always enjoy their company, plus she always gives him money when she leaves. He's nearly 32 but that never has stopped her. He tried to refuse for a while but she'd just sneak it into his pocket.

5) A few days off in a couple weeks. I'm taking Wed-Friday off for Thanksgiving as Wednesday is my husband's birthday. I need to figure out what to get him! I usually do my shopping on Saturdays, but with him off this weekend I have no idea when I'll have the time. But I am looking forward to spending those few days with him.

just like a woman

My grandmother just called me and told me all about the picture show she had seen this afternoon, the one with the plane and with that very handsome young man. She had eaten popcorn with extra butter and very much enjoyed her afternoon. When we were done talking, I asked if my mom was there, and she said no, but she'd let me talk to my sister.

My mom took her phone back from her mother. Of course Grandmother hadn't left the Alzheimer's ward today and hasn't been to the movies in years. And I don't have a sister. She's much better at recognizing me when I'm there in person, but over the phone she often confuses me for my aunt. But it's okay-- mostly I just like to hear her voice, especially on a day like today when, even though she didn't know who I was, her first born granddaughter who used to spend entire summers on her screen porch, her voice was strong and clear and she had a story to tell me, just like it used to be. I could pretend for a minute it was really a grandmother talking to her granddaughter, rather than what it is, what it has become.

I suppose I should feel lucky that she doesn't have Alzheimer's, that it's just dementia, but somehow I don't.

My mother is a strong, beautiful woman. It sounds cliche for any woman, especially a feminist, to speak those words about her mother, but they are such distinct and concrete adjectives I feel they are the most appropriate for her. As a mother, she was loving but overbearing at times, a disciplinarian who could raise one single eyebrow, arched over an almond shaped eye, and drop the edges of her mouth, and you knew, you just knew, you were in for it. Hands on her feminine hips, she'd stare you down until you slowly moved back into the position she wanted.

She was not a demonstrative or an emotional woman; I'm still surprised when she hugs me sometimes. But I am never unsure that she loves me. Everything she did and everything she does for me, and for her boys, she does with joy. Shuttling me to and from gymnastics, humming Madonna songs, watching all my basketball games, cheering me on, dropping me off at college, buttoning up my white dress. I was hers, her own little girl, to mold. She never called herself a feminist, but through her strong hands and voice and opinions I learned to think for myself, to care for myself, and never let anyone push me around.

I owe a large part of who I am to her mother as well, a larger-than-life woman to me, who raised three girls even after losing one very early to cancer, a woman who demanded an egalitarian life with her husband before anyone knew what that was. A creative and expressive woman, she was able to push paint into elegant arrangements, stitch together bits of fabric into lovely garments, measure just right for the most mouthwatering meals, and move earth and seeds to grow both food and flowers, all while weaving stories to entertain and teach us. I am blessed to have been in her company, as was my mother, and I find I am doubly blessed to have had my mother as well.

I struggle to find my own voice sometimes, though, in the presence of all this womanly fortitude. The point of this endeavor I believe is to create my point of view, my way of seeing through my grandmother's, my mother's, and now my eyes, taking into account all the things they have seen and been and all the things I will see and be in my lifetime. Who am I as a woman and as a human, and what will I become?

As my grandmother's voice fades, at times I feel my strength fading with her, and although my mother hasn't expressed it to me in so many words, I know she feels it too. It's difficult to watch a person with such presence dwindle and wilt. But we both know that this is passing on, that there will come a time when we don't have her at all, and our voices will change. We will let them change because they must, but we must not let them lose their vigor.

breathing, and eating

I haven't been able to take a deep breath in nearly a week. There's a little man with a feather living somewhere deep in my trachea, and every time I open my lungs wide to let in a gale of oxygen, he rubs that feather ever so lightly on the walls, tickling me and making me hack and cough. I feel like I cough so hard some times my eyes are going to pop out of my head and roll across the floor. I double-up into a fetal position, feet kicking the air in protest. I just want to breathe normally.

I went to Walmart and bought two bags of hard candies-- one Ricola honey-herb, with natural cough suppressant, and the other sugar-free Jolly Ranchers, fruit flavor variety. The Ricola really seem to help, but they only last about 5 minutes. I wonder how many of those I can eat per day before I get menthol poisoning.

Eating seems to make the little feather-wielder angry. I just had lunch, Round Two in my delve into the world of frozen meals....

Today I had a Burrito Especial from Amy's Kitchen, a company that makes organic and all vegetarian foods, even down to how they process their milks and cheeses, using no animal enzymes. Several of their options are vegan, and they have everything from complete frozen meals to salsas to boxed mac and cheese. If your store carries Amy's in its organic section, you should test them out, you won't be disappointed. I just saw online that they also carry Indian Samosa and Spinach Tofu Wraps... yum.

Anyway, I've had their burritos before and always loved them. I usually get the Black Bean Vegetable Burrito, but I branched out this time. I don't regret it-- it was warm and cheesy and filled with rice and black beans. The only negative I can express is that I wish they were a little bit bigger. At 270 calories it feels more like a side dish or at least a main dish in need of some tortilla chips and salsa or similar, but they're also too big to eat two. I did scarf some wheat thins and a little York peppermint patty, but I have a feeling by 3 I'll be raiding the company fridge for communal string cheese.

Husband, despite his whining about wanting "real" food today, again participated in our money-saving scheme by eating a Boston Market Beef Pot Roast meal. The two-compartment tray contained suspiciously square pieces of beef and some mixed veggies covered in a dark brown sauce next to a generous helping of mashed potatoes. When asked how it was, he said "mmm" with a shrug; then, after swallowing, he told me, "nothing great ever came out of a freezer." I agreed with him, but again we concluded that at 440 calories, it was much healthier than fast food and with all that steak and potatoes was just as filling.

All that said, we're eating out tonight. My best friend in the world is coming to see me, all the way from Maine. She hasn't been down here since... this time last year I think. She's staying for three nights on her cross-country trip from Maine to Colorado. After getting laid off in July from her proofwriting job for the New York Times magazine, she struggled to find work, eventually deciding to just wait tables until the winter, and now she will be a ski instructor in Colorado for the duration of the ski season. I'm so excited about her visit!

personal thoughts for the week

I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
~ Maya Angelou

A woman with a voice is by definition a strong woman. But the search to find that voice can be remarkably difficult. ~ Melinda Gates

My own thoughts on these later, just wanted to get them out there, where I'll remember to read them and chant them and thus eventually believe and strive to be.

Oh, yeah, Grateful Thursday

Well, I'm still alive, although I'm not exactly kicking. Except when I get in a coughing fit.

I usually like to try to express my thoughts more eloquently, but nothing for it now-- this sucks.

Yesterday, after the doctor trip, I don't think I moved from my couch all day except to go to bed. Today has been pretty much the same thing, although I did sit outside with Bub for about 10 minutes, soaking in some sun. He's been driving me crazy today too. He walks around all day, from window to window, begging to be let out only to beg to be let back in. Then he begs for food. Mostly he begs to get up on the couch with me, which is fine except his poor little knee has been hurting him the past two days so he won't jump. He just stands there, whining ever so quietly under his breath, staring at me, eventually resting his chin on the edge of the couch. I tried picking him up, but he yelped. I guess that's not comfortable for his knee either. So I keep forcing him to get in his bed. It's too much energy to dispense.

I thought I was done with fever but it came back this afternoon. Not too high, just around 100, but high enough to make me fairly uncomfortable. As a result, I'm not sure that I'm sticking to my plan of going into the office for a while tomorrow. I guess we'll see. The worst part is that metallic, musty, sick taste in my mouth-- you know what I mean-- that makes everything taste bad and reminds me, even in the brief moments I feel ok, that I'm not.

Oh, I just remembered--
1) I'm glad I went to the doctor when I did. So many people, like my husband, try to medicate something like this with cough medicine and aspirin, hoping it will go away, but I knew when I was running a fever I needed a doctor. Better safe than sorry.
2) The Golden Girls. They make days like this so much better.
3) My husband, who got me Indian last night and is bringing home Sonic tonight. So much for our "save money by eating in" scheme. But there's no way I'm cooking for him, I'd get him sick. And he's not cooking. He wouldn't even know where to start unless it was a steak, or a phone book, and I went with the phone book.

I think 3 is all I can manage right now. Looking forward to some onion rings.

I have bronchitis

Couldn't speak when I woke up this morning, shivering and boiling with fever, so I went to the doctor, and after a blood test (yikes) and my doctor listening to my chest, she told me it was bronchitis. She was so worried about how quickly it came on and how quickly it could turn to pneumonia that she gave me a shot (double yikes), one apparently so strong they made me lay down for it, lest I pass out.

So I've got two injuries added to my respiratory insult. I can't lay on my left side because of my arm and can't lay on my right because of my butt.

Needless to say I'm not at work and won't be for a couple more days. I feel like death, I don't really want to pass that around.

Going back to sleep now, if I can get comfortable.

one of those days, and lunch wars

I must make a grocery list before I go to the store. If I don't, one of two things happens, or more likely, both:
1- I will wander around the store aimlessly picking up items that I neither want nor need nor will ever eat, simply because they look interesting at the time
2- I will leave the store having forgotten very important necessities

Without a list, the trip can take hours. If I'm hungry, I get confused amongst all the pretty boxes and fresh vegetables. I pick up every item imagining what I could use it for, thinking of what could go with it, and how even though that accessory item is on the other side of the store it is now a necessity as well. I go back and forth from the dairy to the produce, from the dry goods to the baking aisle, wandering with wide eyes and an empty belly. If I'm not hungry or in a hurry, I race up and down the aisles, grabbing only by instinct, not realizing until I get home later that I missed several very important elements, and we end up eating applesauce and brussell sprouts or some other terrible combination that I somehow swept into my flying cart.

Yesterday, I diligently made a list. Another good thing about the iPhone is the note-taking feature. It makes my life easier, but I'm sure the people in line around the produce section and down the aisles are cursing me for texting while shopping, not knowing that I'm actually sorting through "juice, milk, bread, cereal..." trying to digitally scratch out the item I just picked up.

When I was finally done with my shopping yesterday, I made my way up to the self-checkout area. I prefer self-checkout. I'm a little bit of a control freak when it comes to bagging-- I use my own bags most of the time (a.k.a. when I remember them), and when you walk up to the bagger with your own bags, they almost always throw you a dirty look and then proceed to only half-fill them, insisting that you need to use some plastic as well. Since, like a lot of things in life, no one is a better bagger than me, I've moved to using the self-checkout so that I can pack my eggs with my bread and my juice with my cans rather than cramming everything on top of each other. And I use fewer bags in the process. Amazing.

As I swiped my card yesterday and waited for my receipt to print, I noticed I had forgotten to grab a twelve pack of soda. I sighed, loaded my bags, carted them to my car, and then came back in to the store. As I was headed to the line again with my box of soda, a man about my age with three things in his cart (a whole ham, 6 eggs, and milk-- interesting combination) insisted I go ahead of him. I scanned the sodas quickly and then ran my card. No good. Ran it again. Nope. Third time, it still wouldn't take it. I knew the guy behind me was starting to wish he hadn't been so nice. The checkout supervisor finally came over, and at the same snail's pace he used to walk, he slid my card delicately through the scanner. Finally it took.

I grabbed the sodas by the slit in the top of the cardboard box that passes as a handle, hefted them out in front of me, and as I hurriedly turned toward the door, I felt the cardboard rip between my thumb and forefinger and the weight in my hand released. I was left holding nothing but a piece of the box, and cokes went flying everywhere, clanking on the ground, rolling under people's feets, smacking a woman's shoe. Like a dumped out jar of marbles, they multiplied as they flew through the air.

Again, I sighed, and began chasing them down. The snail slowly bent and began helping, but he told me just to grab another box and he'd take care of it. The man who had let me go first was already scanning at another checkout counter. I grabbed the new box and ran out the door.

An hour later I was back, this time because I forgot dog food. Sometimes you just can't win for losing.

Husband and I are trying not to eat out as much at lunch. Between Sonic, the Mexican place, and the Chinese buffet, we're getting fat and spending too much money. It's just so easy and tempting, and the main alternative-- taking food to work-- means:
1- You don't get to the leave the office for a bit, which, after all, is the main purpose of lunch
2- You're stuck eating something cold and unfilling like a sandwich and chips

And a sandwich for a vegetarian consists of bread, cheese, a smear of mayo, and some lettuce and tomato if I'm lucky, which I'm usually not. By 3 pm I'm ravenous again.

So I bought a bunch of frozen meals: Amy's, Healthy Choice, Hungry Man, etc. This is probably what distracted me at the store yesterday. I took too much time trying to decide between bean burritos and chicken pot pies, and I raced through the rest of my shopping to make up for it.

Luckily my parents have a condo not too far away from where we work (they're here every other weekend to visit me and go to sporting events on campus), so we can escape there to eat these meals. I will be reviewing them in my blog this week so that:
1- I can remember what the heck we ate and whether or not we liked it
2- Because I can
3- (Yes, there's a 3) So that you lucky people will know what's good and not good in the world of frozen microwavable meals.

And so, for today...

Today I had Healthy Choice's Manicotti Formaggio Complete Meal, which comes with about 2/3 a cup of broccoli and some apple oat mixture for dessert. Despite it taking too long too cook in the microwave for it to really qualify as "fast," (five minutes, stir, then four to six more), and despite the narrow tubular manicotti's odd shape, like cheese-stuffed cigars, this part of the meal had a very filling cheesey and tomato flavor. The sauce stood on it's own, not watery like they can sometimes get, and the pasta was al dente and not gummy or flaccid. The broccoli could have used some salt, which I added, but it was steamed just right. The apple "crisp" (you can't really crisp in the microwave, but I see what they were going for) was sweet, and I always like something sweet at the end of a meal, but it wasn't anything special. Caramel would have helped. But with it all for a mere 350 calories, I feel surprisingly satiated. We've yet to see how long that feeling lasts. More on that tomorrow.

Husband indulged in a 460 calorie Hungry Man Rotisserie Chicken meal, 3 large pieces rounded out with about half a cup of mashed potatoes, half a cup of green beans, and a 2 inch square brownie. He ate all the chicken down to the bones. When I asked how it was, he shrugged and said, "tastes like chicken." The mashed potatoes he ate very quickly, but the beans he only picked at. I asked him to give me an honest opinion, and he said, "this area," circling his fork around the empty black pockets that once held chicken, potatoes, and brownie, "was good, but this area," pointing to the beans sitting in their compartment, "not so much." But he concluded that it was warmer and more filling than a sandwich, just as good as fast food but healthier, and at $3.50 a lot cheaper than what we had been eating, so all in all a good meal.

In other news, I feel like I may be coming down with something. Husband says I'm a hypochondriac, which very well may be, but my throat has been scratchy since about this time yesterday, last night I started coughing a deep chest cough, and the cough continues today. I feel a tickle and a twinge in my throat, and it's making me nervous. But surely 24 hours after noticing the first symptom I'd be sicker than I am now?

Halloween: the only day I wish I had kids

Husband was bored one day at work a couple weeks ago, and while randomly searching around the internet discovered that Lewis Black was touring and coming to our neck of the woods soon. I forgot how small the Orpheum is and authorized him spending about double the normal ticket price to buy a couple of third row seats some season ticket holders were selling for this past Friday night.

The ride up was fun, if trying, with Memphis traffic in the rain, but it gave us time to talk and wander through thoughts that we hadn't gotten to express in the business of life lately. Using the wonder that is my iPhone, we were able to locate a parking garage inbetween the restaurant and theater. We ate at my husband's favorite barbeque rib place, Rendezvous. Unless you just know where this place is or are smart enough to ask directions you'd never find it hidden away in the one-way alley beside the Days Inn. Regardless of its hidey-hole location, it stays very busy, nearly full even at 5:45 when we walked in to eat. I like it because they have meatless red beans and rice, which they label as meatless, and serve with all their meatless sides including cole slaw, pickles, peppers, cheese cubes, and rolls. And it's tasty. Husband revelled in his dry-rubbed rib goodness, practically bathing in it, and we sucked down a pitcher of beer before finally heading out into the cold rain again to walk to the theater.

While waiting for the doors to open, we had a very engrossing conversation about the difference between the "riff-raff" of the left and the "hicks" on the right side of politics, how the left gets all the socially enept nerds with their gristly mustaches and pac man t-shirts and socks with black tennis shoes (there were several of these surrounding us at this point) while the right gets the camo wearing hee-haw yelling crowd. I know both crowds well having grown up as a liberal in a very conservative state. Yes, we were stereotyping, but apparently the staff was trying to keep us trapped in the lobby so we'd buy beer and Lewis Black paraphenalia, and we were bored. Finally they opened the doors and let us sit, and we were very happy with our seats. The opening comedian, John Bowman I believe, was hilarious, and Lewis Black was exactly what we expected him to be. I laughed so hard I cried several times in the hour and a half he was on stage.

I was so sleepy on the ride back, we forgot to pick up my husband's car from his work, and in the morning the last thing I wanted to do was drive him to work, so I was without a car all day Saturday, not that I would have gone anywhere. I spent the day braiding myself a headband for my hippie costume and then braiding my wet hair so it would be wavy later, only to get a migraine at about 1 pm.

By the time my husband got home, my head was still pounding, and two of our friends had pulled out of our plans. We still had another couple we could have gone out with, but they don't go out until late (they're young'ns) and I just wasn't feeling it anymore.

After about the third group of trick-or-treaters (I think it was two little girls as ninjas) came and left, I was feeling better, so we went and got some dinner on the Square so we could see what some folks were wearing. I saw lots of Mario's and several Ninja Turtles-- it was a very old-school Halloween. We tried to find our friends with the little boy, who I hear was the cutest pirate ever, but they ended up at the in-laws, so we just grabbed a couple movies and went home.

Watching all the little kids up and down the streets, running and jumping in their pink fairy wings and long Batman capes, my usually non-existant maternal instinct kicked in. I would love to have some children to dress up in crazy little costumes and parade around the neighborhoods, watching the joy light up their little painted faces. (But then I'd want to give them back to whoever is responsible enough to take care of them on a regular basis. So that feeling didn't last very long. I just need a couple more dogs.)

We snuggled on the couch, with the dog, and watched our movies until late at night. Sunday we watched a couple more but also managed to get in some yardwork, and after holding up that heaviest-weedeater-ever for an hour, my arms are sore today. But that's the last trim before the winter. We want to create ourselves some raised garden beds for use for vegetables in the spring, but we're having trouble finding a border-- it's either 108 foot-by-half foot heavy bricks, moved down the hill one at a time, or some big pieces of untreated cedar. The cedar would be easier to handle but is a lot harder to find. We probably have better things we could be spending money on, like new window blinds or new stairs for the deck, but there's something wholesome and renewing about digging in the dirt and creating food from what once was nothing. My grandfather did it, now I want to carry on.